Can't keep my eyes from the circling skies.
Tongue-tied and twisted, just an earth-bound misfit. - Pink Floyd
The wind was light, the stars were bright.
And oh how the moon made it a beautiful night.
We were laughing and singing and making jokes.
Back and forth we shared a few tokes.
Then it happened to me, feeling suddenly free.
My spirits were shifted, a feeling of being lifted.
A night of such grace. A new favorite place.
I start to appreciate, I start to embrace.
If we start being honest with ourselves.. and put more effort into worrying about other’s aches and pains rather than our own, we have the ability to grow.. even those we love, is it the best situation? And by love, I mean love from the heart, not the eye.. How can we honor others if we are not brutally honest. If we continue to say what people want to hear, we will be on a continuous cycle. We do have the ability to be what we want. But we need to look at ourselves and our lives with pure truth. Next time you have to make a choice.. eliminate the emotions that your head or your Maya give you. Eliminate emotion because it causes you to have a fogged view. If you look at your choices with truth and facts you will understand. Defense mechanisms or protest behavior don’t allow us to grow. Learn about truths. Speak truths. Then grow…..One day at a time..
Lately I have been in a weird daze. One that is hard to explain but one that all of my close friends notice. I zone out into deep thoughts and almost premonition-like situations. It fascinates me that I can already know so much information but have so much more to learn. When I lay down at night to go to bed I let my mind think long and hard. I listen to my conscience as it speaks to me and teaches me.. So many things we can learn if we simply just listen.
As I let my thoughts get the best of me this evening,
I felt three subtle tears roll down my left cheek.
I didn’t swipe them away…
because you can’t swipe away pain.
So I let them dry and I made it through..
I try not to miss my yesterdays.
But tonight is one of those nights where..
Emotions scream inside me but my mouth remains closed.
My heart is locked up, my feelings don’t show.
I’m happy, I’m free, I’m simply being independent me..
Then tell me this, why does it hurt? So deep inside.
Where feelings and emotions and thoughts all collide.
I try to explain and be vocal with my voice.
Will I always be a friend, just a second choice?
I’m tired, I’m awake, feeling out of place.
I just want to be cuddled, loved and embraced.
Recently I feel alive and well. I feel happy and uplifted. I am in a constant struggle to better my character in turn, seeking the good out of others.